It’s been quite a ride thus far and I have to say that I love every minute of it. Sure, I’m up at 2:47am just to give myself a chance to write and get some other things done but it’s worth it to have Beany in my life. I mean, look at him. What wouldn’t I do for him? What wouldn’t you do for him? Whatever he wants, with those puppydog eyes, I’ll probably give it to him.
Visiting Grammie
Picture provided by Pa
And, yes, it’s a boy. I know he’s cute enough to be a girl but it’s a boy.
On Saturday a few family and friends came out to the Ross Pinetum in Central Park for a Potluck Picnic and to meet Beany. Besides a few people having a hard time finding the spot, we all had a blast. My uncle and a couple college friends came out. Tom’s family was there, including 3 of Beany’s cousins. We even got to meet our Belly Buddies from WhatToExpect.com. We had never met them before but we knew it was them as soon as we saw them. I think Beany may miss my curly hair because he smiled at my friend with curly hair a little too much for my taste. He was held by his big cousins then passed around for everyone to enjoy. After a while, and Pa was back from the store with cutlery, we finally ate. We munched on gourmet and not-so-gourmet cookies, fruit, pasta salad, nachos, chips and salsa, and , for dessert, carrot cake. And Beany had gourmet Enfamil and was then the centerpiece for our dining experience. Anyway, I think everyone had fun. There was good food, games, good conversation, laughter, and a lot of love all on a very nice day. So I’d like to thank everyone for coming out and I hope you’ll all share your pictures because Tom and I only got one.
So we made it through Beany’s first round of vaccinations. He cried for a total of three minutes during the shots and I cried for two minutes after. 
So Tom and I are looking for a website for Beany. We’ve been having a little trouble. Since he has such a common name, there isn’t much to choose from. I looked up his name as a domain and it’s some comedian’s site. There were some available to be “repurchased” through a dealer, but that feels so icky using someone else’s domain. I want his domain to be unique. Something he put on business card when he’s older and not be ashamed of it.
I don’t know just yet what his site will contain…but I’m thinking “Beany: A History in Pictures.” We’ll see.
BTW Beany goes in for his first shots tomorrow and I’m a little scared. He’s just sitting here smiling and laughing without the slightest clue that he’ll have 4 needles pushed into his little body in less than 16 hours. 
I just wanted to post this gorgeous picture of Beany. I’m not sure yet if his eyes will stay this color or change, but I had to show that his eyes are just as intense as his dad’s.
So it’s been about 6 weeks that I’ve been a mother and I have to say that it is not at all what I expected. Yes it’s hard, but it’s also very rewarding. I’m sure that are many people who would ask me, “What do you know? You’ve only been a mother for 6 weeks.” My answer: Love. I know love and that has made me an expert mother. Even if I am only an expert on Beany, I’m an expert nonetheless.
Motherhood has been a roller coaster of emotion so far. There’s anxiety, fear, love, devotion, obsessiveness, wanting, impatience, gratefulness, and the feeling of being blessed. However, being a parent is trying. I have to admit that at times I’ve had to lay him down and just let him scream. And I have done at this only when at my boiling point. It hurts to do it, but it works.
It’s been so long since my last post. A lot has happened. The main thing, as you can see, is that I had a baby. I never thought I could have such a beautiful child. His name is Beany and he is the love of my life.
